2002-10-03 - 3:58 a.m.

Love Test

If you read my last entry you may have noticed it was entirely underlined. It was also entirely bolded. That's cause I made a mistake in my html tags to stop underline and bold that are always on my titles to each entry. Doh! Thanks to Wendyloo for pointing out that mistake. Normally, I re-read my own entries. I didn't that time. I usually only fix major errors like that. I rarely fix grammatical errors. I dunno I like something about it being raw, that my words are there they way they came out of my fingers. Maybe I'm just weird. Maybe?! (laughter)

If anyone cares the two tylenol, celexa, the cup of tea, and writing that crappy last entry worked wonders. I went and laid down in bed and managed to calmly breathe and drift off into sleep. I was still tired in the morning but I really enjoyed the way I could feel my body slowly allowing itself to sleep. It was a "fun" ride.

Strangerlucy quoted me from my last entry in my guestbook and it was weird reading my own words. Strangely (pun?), She picked the sentence I slowed down and crafted while I was writing that entry. Which I suppose made it even more powerful to me.

She's not the first person to quote me. Roadiepig was actually the first person to quote me back something I said. He chose something I've actually said many times in different scenerios in my life. Which is probably mostly advice I never bother to stop and listen to myself and why I have to repeat it outloud so many times.

I took another test this evening. This one has an involved answer SO I am not putting it in the sidebar. (On a sidenote though, the last one I put in my sidebar was huge and annoying. Thanks for not complaining. I hated it enough myself for everyone, trust me.)

I also think I want to comment about the results. So I'll share that all with you. I took a Love Test - Animal Test. I found it via Warped One's diary. She's an occasional read of mine and lists me as one of her favourites. (Why anyone lists me as a favourite is beyond me anyway.)

Anyway, the RESULTS of this Love Test goes as follows :

1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she loves you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal, faithful, never change.

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is that both of you can talk about everything and anything, no secret is kept.

6. You can't resist desire and lust; most probably you'll commit adultery.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you don't want to be tied down by a steady relationship, you just want to flirt around.

Now Let me Comment since I know Me better than any test could and should.

1. True. I am always attracted to people who have a completely different interior than their exterior. It's like finding treasure. I like depth to a person. Never Judge a book by it's cover.

2. True. Good God would this make my life just generally EASIER let alone make feel "irresistable". Just tell me you love me. I'm not smart enough to figure it out without having it stuck to my head on a Postit(TM) Note.

3. True. I'm one of the solid rock people. The way I act today is the way I'll act tomorrow. Faithful? Yes, Please. But Keep Reading.

4. What? This made no sense to me. Might be things I wouldn't want in a partner at all.

5. True. I love to talk about everything. I want my partner in life to be just that a partner. My best friend. Nothing to hide cause there's no point if you talk about everything.

6. Sigh. YES! Dammit. If anyone has read previous entries. I've talked about my inability to keep myself from straying. It's something I work on everyday.

7. Yes. Marriage to me is the ultimate prize in life. I don't mean like a trophy. I mean like something you cherish and hold dear to your heart. If I get married I'm in it for the long run. Which may be why I am so scared to make a mistake with my heart. (See last response for results of that fear.)

8. Yes. I'm just trying to learn who I am. I need to know that I can flirt and not take it to the next level. It's hit and miss and maybe it's a dangerous game. But it's a learning process.

How weird. I just had to comment when I saw the lust result. It made me shake my head. I am who I am.

Which is close to "I am who I say I am." which seems to be repeating in my head lately. I have no idea why.

Footnote : I did a lot of LINKING this entry so I thought I may as well link one person for the hell of it because Weetabix I am still your Biatch. LOL.

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