2002-12-06 - 5:38 a.m.

Who Needs Sleep.. I do

Gah. Does my Body understand I have to work all day today and all day tomorrow? Cause I do. I went to bed around 2:30am cause I my work day starts off late (I have to be up by 9am) but then I'll be working until probably 1am. It's Xmas, of course, so I split my day between Bingo and DJ'n an Xmas Party. This is how my entire DJ season will go this year. Thankfully it's not a long one this year only three weekends.

Strangerlucy talked about self pity and SixWeasels even commented on the entry too. As I read it I realized that I should be motivated by it. I was also thinking if someone read that entry and it offended them in some way then good. You probably need to hear it.

"Adapt or wither away- the choice is that harsh."

She hits it on the nail right there. I've been noticing I'm really in the wither away mode. I am sleeping too much and I know I have things on my agenda and plate that I need to deal with. I'm not sure what's so big and scary about it all that I need to put it off like that. I blame it on my perfectionist side. I look at things and think they need to be "just so" or else it's not worth doing them. One of these days, and that day had better come soon, I need to kick myself in the ass and realize that I don't live in a perfect world and sometimes things are just going to be the way they are.

It's not like I am not smart enough to know what I need to do. I just need to do it.

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