2004-01-21 - 2:18 a.m.

Hold On...

Today I came one more step closer to being able to reveal that which I haven't been able to talk about. This has dragged on for so fucking long it's going to be anti-climatic for my faithful 8 readers.

After a rather long but fairly productive day at work I came home to find out that my sister Jo had called and said my mom had gone downhill a bit more. The Chick tried to ask her some questions regarding her condition and said she pissed off my sis. I don't think that's what happened as much as my sister Jo is just more emotional than myself or my other sister.

Even though I was told Jo would be out I returned her call anyway. I then called my Aunt because my cousin is getting married in February and I'm really not sure at this point if I'll be able to attend but I wanted to phone and let her know I had got the invitation. This Aunt happens to my Mom's only sibling so we had a bit of talk about what's going on. Part of the problem is my mom isn't talking to my Aunt right now. It's sad really. But there's nothing I can do to fix that. It's between them.

I also gave my other sister a call. Talked to her for about 30 minutes about the whole situation. I came to the conclusion that my mom probably thinks I don't give a shit but that's not true. I've talked about this before and I'm not about to re-hash it. I'm trying to do my best in all arenas which means I have to split my energies. I'm not sure this is the wisest course but it seems the lesser of a few evils.

It's 2:30am. I should be in bed I've got a long day again tomorrow. Hell, I've got a long week and next week isn't looking any easier at this point. There's so much on my mind it's amazing I'm still going. The quiet times are the worst because I realize how much there is to do, that I have so many things I could be doing instead of trying to distract my mind (read giving it a break).

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