2003-05-02 - 2:00 a.m.

Disappointment

I haven't written a few days. This is because originally I didn't really have anything to report. I was just going to work and coming home.

Now I have something to write about. The only problem is I am not really proud to be writing it. I'm actually kind of disgusted with myself.

I met woman from my chat room awhile ago, let's call her, Gothie. She's not really Goth, she just had black hair and lots of piercings. She could be Goth but she's not but Gothie suits her. Y'know?

Anyway Gothie and I had met for coffee awhile back and there wasn't a huge connection there. I think she may have been attracted to me.

I say that because she's been trying to get together again ever since. Well, We finally met for coffee after I got off work the other day. It was a really nice late afternoon/early evening out so we went for a stroll along the water. Nothing really spectacular. Anyway, we got back to the cars and hummed and hawed about what to do next. We decided to go back to my place to play cards.

HAHA, We never did play cards. We made out for an hour or so. No clothes came off but it could have gone alot farther.

I'm disappointed in myself. I know this is the exact reason I didn't want to be serious with The Chick. That way if something "happens" I don't have to feel I'm breaking or hurting anything. (Who am I kidding eh?) I know The Chick isn't that stupid either. She's aware of my past too.

The other side of it is. Gothie is just a conquest. She's not my "type" in many senses. I feel no attraction there at all. She would be nothing but a sexual conquest. I think she may feel differently about me. That leaves me feeling rather vexed.

Gah.

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