2003-04-19 - 11:33 a.m.

The Samantha Factor

You don't need any proof that I'm selfish. You should be able to figure it out from my various dribblings on here. Yet, I proved it to myself again the other day.

As I've mentioned the stress of the last few weeks has gotten to me and I've been exhausted. Which means I've sleeping lots. Then you bring in The Samantha Factor and I look like an ass.

Samantha phoned me the other night after my first day shift and I was just laying in bed. She'd had a terrible day and was having trouble being rational thinking. After talking to me on the phone for awhile, my attempt to comfort her in my own depleted emotional and phyiscal state, she asked me to come over and lay with her. I said No. I just didn't have it in me. I know the right thing was probably to go over there, even though I was exhausted, and hold her. Yet, I didn't. She's been super during all the crap I've gone through with the whole arbitration process. She's been sympathetic about the situation with my mom. She deserves a medal for it. Yet, when the ball is in the opposite court I fail to return it.

Last Night I went over there

We watched a hilarious little movie (?) called "Sex Monster" with Muriel Hemingway on Bravo. I had a damn good laugh over it although at times the show was tedious.

After that we went to bed and I got a fairly decent sleep. I work tonight so I made my exit around 10ish this morning. Is that wrong? I spent the night with her but I am having the rest of the day to myself before work.

Tonight is our big car giveaway night and I need to prep my head. That requires a supreme lack of people to deal with the overload I'll face this evening.

A whole ton of her family are decending upon her house on Easter Sunday. She's invited me to come over. I work Sunday night though. Not sure I can handle both her family and work in the same day. We'll see how I feel tomorrow, I know tonight will take a lot of out me.

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