2005-02-19 - 7:18 p.m.

Rough Day

Everybody has bad days. Even a great guy like myself isn't immune to having a bad day. I can prove it because I had one today.

I just got in the door and I'd like to do nothing other than write this day off. I can't say very much happened in it that I'm happy about.

Work was an unmitigated disaster. I feel like a boxer who's been totally beat to shit. One too many rounds, one too many fights.

In my personal life, I'm facing the fact that I've been told they've found a tumor in my Dad. I can't help but having that empty pit of a stomach feeling that this SOUNDS like it could be the big C.

What is completely ridiculous (please try and follow me here) is the level in which this is effecting me. I can't say I've ever been that close to my father. I've documented a fair bit here just how much my dad and I don't get along. When my mom was really sick I didn't have near the bubbling of surface emotions. I believe it's doing a job on my temperment.

I guess the biggest difference is I didn't hold things back when my mom was sick. I told pretty much anyone who had a conversation with me. I explained it out as many times as I could so that I was comfortable with it. This time around, I've known about the tumor for a couple of days now and I only recently told my boss because I needed to let him know what was going on. Other than that, I've held this in because I haven't told other people. I'm not sure why the difference.

It's one of those strange things we do as people react differently in one situation and then in similiar circumstances we react totally different.

All this and I had been planning on writing about something completely different. Anyway, Today is a write off and I'm done with it.

BTW, I finally got around to adding comments via Diaryland. It's only take 5 months or something. I tell you, Procrastinating is an artform to me.

A Free Blue Bingo Dabber to Mousemilk who added me as a favourite and is not bestowed with position of 40th person to add me as a favourite.

I wonder who will be 50th. We may know the answer to that question sometime next year.

Well, This is a bit of a downer entry so after awhile of thinking about it I thought I should post something humourous I found THIS clip of a Kid's TV Show from the 70's.

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