2004-08-02 - 2:17 p.m.

Old Flames (It Had To Happen Sometime)

It had to happen sooner or later. You may remember when The Chick moved I mentioned a small detail about Veronica living not only in the same building but down the hall from her. Then add the fact I visit The Chick on a weekly basis and that means I go in an out of that building a number of times a week. The result is eventually I had to run into Veronica. That happened the last time I was there.

It didn't go quite as badly as I thought it would. I guess since I was the bad guy in that relationship that it was my own guilt about the past that was making me dread bumping into her. The conversation was short and it basically was the "this is what's happening now" in my life conversation. I pointed out that the Crapstang was gone and that I had gotten a new car and that the reason I was around her building was not because I was stalking her but because my girlfriend had moved in the building.

She told me she thought she saw The Flash on one of the balconies. Ya, Flash has NEVER been that easy to disguise.

Running into an old flame is never easy. I'm sure it was just as awkward on Veronica's side as it was mine. It's just a reminder of what could have been had things just taken a different turn. Of course, the fact that relationship is over has a lot to do with my own action so it's a bitter pill to swallow when confronted with the memory.

I've probably mentioned this before but it's probably the frienship I miss the most. Definitely, Veronica and I had a lot of the same interests and I quite often will hear a piece of music or see something that I know she would also enjoy. Not being able to share those things with her is when it bothers me.

I don't want to regret the past. I've spent far, far too many years of my life doing just that. I made my decisions and I have to stand by them whether they were right, wrong or indifferent. I also have to accept the fallout of those decisions. Hopefully, learn something from them so that I could have a more desired outcome. It's easier said than done.

I take a bit of a risk in posting this in here since The Chick may misunderstand what and why I'm posting this. All I can say is it's just me muttering and filing.

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Someone got here searching for why can't i motivate myself

I ask myself that on repeated basis which is probably why I popped up in a search engine using that phrase.

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