2003-05-19 - 2:23 a.m.

No Particular Point

I've nothing to say again.

It's just the way it goes.

I had a couple of brief conversations with Veronica in the past couple days. Nothing stellar. She's seeing someone, I'm seeing someone, the world moves on. Whether you like it or not.

Samantha asked me last night if I wanted to go play bingo with her and her friend (who I may refer to occasionally as her Lesbian Lover but neither one is a Lesbian, you just sometimes wish it were so.) [Note: I really should do a cast page shouldn't I? The characters in my life are starting to amass.]

Tonight, She wanted me to go see the fireworks. I'm sure I would have enjoyed them but I was all the way home already, in the middle of eating, and my energy level was nearing ZERO. I'm sure, as I'm sure you're all thinking, these are all excuses but none the less I didn't feel like going out.

I stayed home. It's now, 2:30am and I'm hungry. I've been hungry since 11:30pm but I really don't have anything that great here to eat. One of these days I should go grocery shopping for food stuff around here. Other than that, I'll attempt to get up tomorrow and do something product.

It's also a Stat Holiday tomorrow so it's time and half for me tomorrow. Plus I get paid for one of my scheduled days off (Wed/Thurs). [That's how I like to think out Stats.] Another Kewl Trick is it's another stat holiday that falls in my paycheques for May. 3 Stats in One month of Cheques. Gotta like that. That's almost a week of pay extra not to mention this month was 3 pay cheques.

I'll probably phone my mom on my days off and see how things are going. Not that I really want to know at this point. Sometimes ignorance is bliss, especially when it comes to a loved ones health. Maybe that sounds uncaring but it's not really. It's not easy to accept that one of my parents may be dying. Especially, the one I thought was in pretty good health.

See, that's the irony. I've been silently preparing myself for the downhill slide of my dad not my mom. I'm not really prepared for this at all. This defies my logical plan that my dad go before my mom because she's his world. I could rationally see that as an acceptable path of life. The other way around just stinks. Now, I realize I am getting the cart before the horse here. The total picture of what's going on with my mom isn't quite in focus yet but I'm preparing myself for the worst because it's easier to relax if it's not as bad then it is to get your hopes up and have them squashed like a bug.

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